Sunday, April 5, 2020
Is it, in fact, true that all forms of upset are the same?
Is it wise for me to question that which is taught in these lessons?
Perhaps if I had a more solidly educated grounds from which to pose my protest, other than simply being afraid to emerge from my “snow cave of the familiar.” For the purposes of following through with these lessons and the course as a whole, I will instead practice my ability to obediently absorb the information. Therefore, yes, all forms of upset are the same.
Upon reflection, I feel anxious about money. I feel afraid of the Corona Virus. I feel resentment toward my siblings.
- I am not anxious about money for the reason that I think.
- I am not afraid of the C.V. for the reason that I think.
- I am not resentful of my siblings for the reason that I think.
5.4.1 Yes!!! I definitely find it difficult to be indiscriminate in the application of this idea. I feel the fear of the C.V. is far too unique and extreme to be considered in the same way as the more trivial concerns of financial anxiety and family drama.
5.4.3 “There are no small upsets. They are all equally disturbing to my peace of mind.”
5.6.3 “I cannot keep this form of upset and let the others go. For the purposes of these exercises, then, I will regard them all as the same.”
And now this lesson makes a bit more sense. As I walked through the lesson again, more slowly, I was able to sort through the hesitations and confusion to achieve a clearer understanding of the lesson’s intent.
It is not for me to decide what I should and should not be seeing or feeling. I do not need to judge myself too harshly . All that I feel is okay. No single worry or emotion is any greater or lesser than another. They are all the same and all deserve the same level of respect.
Also, my problems are not for me to solve. At least not yet because I can’t understand them yet. I don’t feel these emotions for the reasons that I think. And for today, I will sit with that.